Mirror, Mirror

I'd love to start this off with pics of beautiful children, and heart touching moments with the ministry that we've been a part of this month, but I'm not gonna do that. Not just yet.

This month has had amazing moments, beautiful children from all different cultures, and moments that just melt your heart.

This month has had it's challenges as well.

This month brought out hard feedback for me personally, and for my team.

It brought out the ugly selfish tendency’s we all have to prefer ourselves rather than preferring others.

It brought out those skeletons from my closet, you know those things you thought you dealt with in a past season? Or those things you Racer's thought you let go of at training camp??

Yeah, this month has been a pivotal moment of this journey. A pivotal moment of letting go of my own independence. A moment of “letting go, and leaning into”. I am leaning into what He has for me on this journey, learning how to truly journey with Him, sometimes in suffering, sometimes in joy, either or I am journeying with Him.. right by His side.

So here I am in Malaysia a week out from leaving this place and embarking on another leg of the journey heading into Cambodia month 6. Wow!

I sit here and ponder, coming to a place of reflection with the Lord.

I reflect on these past 5 months, and what they have meant to me, what they have meant for me..

My walk, My journey..

The man I am. Is he so different? 

I have changed a lot, and at the same time I'm still me. Just a better version of me. A me that loves Jesus a little bit more. A me that loves people a little bit more. A me that has eyes for people. A me that has eyes that see people differently. 

I reflect on this month, and how close I got with our contact. How I see his need. I see His heart, and the Lord's heart for him, towards him.

One thing I'm asking now is for the Lord's eyes.

For every country, every place I go, every person I meet..
 

I want to see as He sees..

I want to view people in light of this man. People I know from home, people I am with here on the Race.

I want His eyes..

I see some things in myself that I didn't see before either.

I like the man I'm becoming.

I have dreams developing out here.

That's all for now.. follow my journey.. There's more to come!